Lately there’s been alot of discontent, looking at twitch & youtube, how the environment & competitive-ness. It honestly feels super wrong… and the overall direction isn’t going that well. But then again there are others who don’t give a fuck and just do what they love… and enjoy it along the way. I guess that’s just something I’ve been forgetting, tunnel visioning on the smaller things in life, focusing on “creating content”, while really not enjoying things.
Alot of focus on “what will I enjoy”, while actually not going out and enjoying anything. Worrying so much about the end product, that I forget the most important thing(s), to just relax and enjoy life.
When you just get super caught up in the stupid shit, worrying about what you want to do for the rest of your life, when you can’t even see a meter ahead of you in the foggy shit that is your future.
There’s no point in being mad over stupid shit like others’ circumstances, the circumstances of the world, and future… (sometimes you gotta worry about it) I’m already lucky enough to be alive.
Getting mad at yourself for not doing anything, or getting mad at society, isn’t the solution for this. It just creates a perpetual cycle of hate, blaming and creating barriers inbetween yourself, and each other.
The more pressure you put on yourself, the tighter it;s gonna be. One day, it’s gonna snap. The more you expect yourself to “be happy” or to be “x or y”, “sane” “not sad”, the tighter your body and mind becomes. Just let it all go. You don’t have to be any way. Just…be.
Sometimes it’s hard to let go, it might (or will) take some time. Forgive yourself for making mistakes,
forgive yourself for the self-beat ups, forgive yourself for the past, present and the future. It’s ok to just… be
love & peace.